Well here I am. I had started a blog a while ago discussing my postnatal (or if you're in North America postpartum) depression and thought it was going well until I mentioned alcohol. I felt that I was being judged, being told to 'eat chocolate' instead of drinking wine and all kinds of other advice that told me I was clearly not meant to discuss drinking in conjunction with being a mother and/ or being depressed.
I scoured the pages for other mothers like me, those who drank in hiding... but couldn't find anything. I thought I'd start a blog on this myself thinking I would be the only one out there, but then two days ago I stumbled across Crying Out Now and MATA which led me to a whole world of women coming about about their alcohol use and abuse. I myself have been convincing myself that I don't have a problem and am finally ready to face up to the fact that I abuse alcohol.
This is the latest path my journey has taken me down. I believe I didn't find those pages when I looked before because it wasn't the right time for me. I was just getting through pnd and tackling alcohol probably would've been too much. But now it is clearly the time. I have found a network of other people who have gone through or are going through the same thing. I have no idea where to start so I'm starting here. After all, I've gotta start somewhere.
I'm new to blogging and feel as though I can identify. I too struggled with post partum depression, ppd here in the US. I also struggle with my habit of abusing alcohol. I'm glad I found your blog. hugs
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