It's day 4 and I want a drink

That's about the size of it.  Already my mind is starting with the 'it wasn't so bad' and 'who really cares, I should just have a drink' and a million other things like that.  I can taste the wine in my mouth.  I guess I am craving it .... I don't really want to drink but I do if that makes any sense.  I'm not going to.  I mean there is no way I am going to today.  It's just forever that scares me.  I still want to keep drinking to the weekends.  But then I know it'll seep out in to the week and before I know it I'll be back to 1.5 bottles a day.  Anyway, just had to get out of my head and write it out and put it out there.  I want to drink.